Pushing Snooze

 "I Regret That Work Out - Said No One Ever" 

   Throw my hair up and call me pineapple head because I did not want to get out of bed or even move this week.. Most people think that body builders are motivated all the time. I hate to burst your bubble but that is one big fat lie! If a body build lacks motivation they do not cave in and go hard on a cheat meal making it a cheat day losing all progress. They suck it up and get through the day.
    In the midst of losing weight I am allowing cheat meals. It makes this sane. Once I get 12 weeks out we will see what my plan is.  Does this make progress slower? Yes, It does make progress slower. Its not just about having a good physique or being summer ready. I am trying to find balance in life. I refuse to go ham then gain all my weight back because of restriction. Once one finishes a diet, then one will gain all the weight back. You can't just follow a strict diet for 30 days then expect to keep it off by going back to the same bad habits. It doesn't work like that. 

     I am pretty sure food is on my mind about every second of the day. Before bed I will tell myself, I can't wait for breakfast in the morning close my eyes then go to bed. Then right after breakfast, mmmm lunch sounds good right now. Then after lunch, snack, ahh, thats what I'll have for a snack. Even when I go to Costco and pass by my favorite pizza, it is one of the saddest moments of my life. Pathetic I know, I cry over pizza. But even though I cry about it I I know it is worth it in the end to say No. 

     Balance is important to grasp. Kade loves to eat clean and so do I. We love our cheat meals, and we love a little dessert here and there. We don't like to eat whatever we want all the time because how we perceive ourselves and how we look is important to us. We are not going to flush it down the toilet and let our health spiral out of control. 

    One thing that helps me is I try to treat every day like its the first. Some days I try to think, am I in control or is my stomach in control when I am eating clean.  Then I write in my fitness journal how I am feeling if I am wanting to give up, or give in to anything really. I always have to remind myself that my cheat meal will come, be patient its okay if I skip out. Then during my cheat meal, I love to just sit, indulge and eat. Not be an animal and eat huge portions but eating reasonable portions being appreciative for the good food that I am eating. 

     Dieting is never a good idea. I hate when people say I want to be "Bikini Ready" Well thats a great goal, its just not feasible to keep it up  and to stay motivated. Especially during the winter season. With all them holiday treats and goodies. When I think of my body I think I want to be fit because I want to keep and live as long as I can. 

    This week I did not want to go work out. Overtime when I have these days  I really don't want to work out, I think of all the reasons why I started in the first place. Why I hate being in the position that I am in with my body. Thinking of all the reasons really gets me going. It really is not an option weather or not I want to. Somedays it reminds me of my dad. He is an Oral Surgeon and loves his job! He has his days where he doesn't want to work. He would always tell me that its not always if we feel like it or not, it is I have to because my life depends on it!  I have to do this for myself. To make myself stronger, mentally and physically. We put in the work we see results and we get what we want out of life. No one gets anywhere by being lazy in life. 

    Becoming healthier having an image of what fit looks like in my head always reminds me of why I want to eat clean. It doesn't happen over night, and it doesn't happen in a month. It takes will power and endurance to keep going to keep fighting against the grain (in my case Pizza) to really strive to be the best version of myself that I can be everyday. I am constantly in a competition with my self.