Food Happy

"To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people just exist." - Oscar Wilde.

It is the freaking weekend. Not that I don't love Mondays, because I do. I just love date night more. 

We are making a whole30 meal together for date night and I couldn't be more happier. We were supposed to go on a hike, Kade decided its pretty bad weather and not the greatest idea. Then he suggested the date night of making a meal together. 

I am getting more and more excited that I have five more days left of whole30 goodness. I love the whole30. People will tell me that I am crazy for doing the cleanse. But I just can't hep but feel a little happiness in my soul. Knowing I am doing something hard, actually sticking to it, following my word makes it all the worth while.

I want to learn as much about health as I possibly can. Knowledge is power and I seriously want to know everything about fitness, health, nutrition, everything I possibly can learn I want to know. Its an addiction to know whats healthy and what is not. Let me remind you, cleansing my body of all the junk and getting you body back on track was important for me, that was the whole reason for participating in the cleanse. Then when I finished stuff my face with donuts and call it good. 

Living a fit lifestyle is a consistent journey. It never ends. If you want it bad enough and it is that important to you, then you will do it. You wills say no to the cookies, to the donuts, to the chips. The power of saying no has become a very valuable lesson and so rewarding. 

I am not saying that the whole30 is the only way to lose weight because it isn't and this was not the reason for attempting the cleanse. Being a binge eater, overweight, not happy, I couldn't live it any longer. I really needed to cut everything cold turkey. Straight from the get go! 

Even after this, Kade is taking me to the Cheese Cake Factory. I am excited to go, I am making a conscious choice of what to order before I go, being responsible staying on track. 

This is my lesson in my healthy life style of being clean and not getting in the habit of binge eating to fully embrace a healthy life. Its a consistent effort to be healthy, to be clean, to desire that life. It isn't feasible to just want a good body and let that be your motivation. There has to be a deeper WHY to the brain to physically keep going. Even when it gets so tiring, you want to give up and just can't go on. The deeper your WHY is the longer you will resist and endure till the end. 

Trust me when I say I have failed multiple of times because of wanting to be "skinny". Happy foods equals happy life. Becoming obsessed with the scale, not noticing calorie intake, complete binge eating,  or whatever your scenario is will just leave you to the gimmicks you keep telling yourself.  

I honestly really had to train my mind. Mentally prepare myself that this was bigger than myself. I have so much potential, I needed to make this happen more than stuffing my face with pizza everyday leaving me with seconds of happiness then afterwards it went away still depressed. 

I am finding happiness in everyday life. Staying true to my heart and following my dreams has been a huge blessing for me. I am scorching with confidence because of the decision to simply listen to myself and to be grateful with a happy heart.